How the Fuck Did I Get Here?

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Heartbreak

The First Heartbreak
A poem I wrote when I was 15
Jan 4 • Alisa Sieber
The Missing Kitten
A raw monologue about motherhood, generational trauma, and the moment when love means not ending someone else’s search too soon.
Jan 3 • Alisa Sieber
11:41
The Intimacy Paradox
I sang my truth to a room full of people in our newly built dome, but being witnessed by the one person who knows me best still feels impossible.
Oct 28, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
I've Been Running From Heartbreak My Entire Life
A stranger assumed a man broke me. I let him believe it. The truth is more complicated: I am both the heartbreaker and the heartbroken. On finally…
Oct 21, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
The Water at Fly Ranch
I learned my body knew how to surface. I didn't know yet that floating alone was only half the work.
Oct 9, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
Happy F&cking New Year
A raw journal entry written at fourteen on New Year’s, tracing heartbreak, emotional collapse, and the whiplash between despair and getting through the…
Jan 2, 2003 • Alisa Sieber
I'm Sick, I'm Tired, and I Didn't Do That
An excerpt written at fourteen, tracing the moment guilt took root and silence became safer than being misunderstood inside family conflict and…
Jan 29, 2002 • Alisa Sieber
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