How the Fuck Did I Get Here?

How the Fuck Did I Get Here?

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This Is Not Where the Story Starts
An origin story about survival, performance, motherhood, and memory. A memoir-in-progress tracing how truth, trauma, and identity collide.
Jan 5 • Alisa Sieber
I Was in Hell While Living a Fairytale
Over flat wine from France, I could finally be honest with my husband about the fairytale life I'd been performing. About the castle where I felt…
Nov 1, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
The Water at Fly Ranch
I learned my body knew how to surface. I didn't know yet that floating alone was only half the work.
Oct 9, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
I Did Something Bad
A visceral autofiction prologue about the American Dream, desire, self-betrayal, and the moment before everything finally breaks open.
Aug 5, 2021 • Alisa Sieber
I Built Myself to Be Wanted
What happens when desirability becomes your survival strategy.
Feb 24, 2003 • Alisa Sieber
A Series of Random Thoughts
A raw journal entry written at age thirteen after starting a new school, grappling with identity, belonging, and unanswerable questions that shaped a…
Feb 20, 2001 • Alisa Sieber
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