Self Abandonment

Honor Courage and Commitment

At 18, a $150,000 scholarship felt like destiny. Twenty years later, I understand it was escape. A journal entry, unedited, and the truth it took…

Mar 1 • Alisa Sieber

A Love Letter to the Boy Who Broke Me

The moment I could see the cycle clearly and still chose to step back inside it.

Feb 19 • Alisa Sieber

The Loop Begins Here

A journal at fifteen, on repetition, self-editing, and the moment love started to feel like adjustment.

Feb 18 • Alisa Sieber

How Don’t Leave Me High and Dry Came to Life

A behind-the-scenes look at writing, music, and performance

Jan 26 • Alisa Sieber

This Is Not Where the Story Starts

An origin story about survival, performance, motherhood, and memory. A memoir-in-progress tracing how truth, trauma, and identity collide.

Jan 5 • Alisa Sieber

The First Heartbreak

A poem I wrote when I was 15

Jan 4 • Alisa Sieber

I Was in Hell While Living a Fairytale

Over flat wine from France, I could finally be honest with my husband about the fairytale life I'd been performing. About the castle where I felt…

Nov 1, 2025 • Alisa Sieber

The Water at Fly Ranch

I learned my body knew how to surface. I didn't know yet that floating alone was only half the work.

Oct 9, 2025 • Alisa Sieber

I Did Something Bad

A visceral autofiction prologue about the American Dream, desire, self-betrayal, and the moment before everything finally breaks open.

Aug 5, 2021 • Alisa Sieber

Don't Leave Me High and Dry

A visceral postpartum autofiction chapter exploring motherhood, trauma, and survival through lived experience, memory, and music.

Jan 6, 2019 • Alisa Sieber

I Built Myself to Be Wanted

What happens when desirability becomes your survival strategy.

Feb 24, 2003 • Alisa Sieber

I’m the Bitch, Eh?

A fourteen-year-old tries to solve heartbreak like a crime scene.

Feb 16, 2002 • Alisa Sieber

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