How the Fuck Did I Get Here?

How the Fuck Did I Get Here?

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Honor Courage and Commitment
At 18, a $150,000 scholarship felt like destiny. Twenty years later, I understand it was escape. A journal entry, unedited, and the truth it took…
Mar 1 • Alisa Sieber
This Is Not Where the Story Starts
An origin story about survival, performance, motherhood, and memory. A memoir-in-progress tracing how truth, trauma, and identity collide.
Jan 5 • Alisa Sieber
Christmas. A Love Hate Relationship. Part 3.
Christmas Future — The Gift of No Chaos
Jan 2 • Alisa Sieber
I Was in Hell While Living a Fairytale
Over flat wine from France, I could finally be honest with my husband about the fairytale life I'd been performing. About the castle where I felt…
Nov 1, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
The Intimacy Paradox
I sang my truth to a room full of people in our newly built dome, but being witnessed by the one person who knows me best still feels impossible.
Oct 28, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
The Water at Fly Ranch
I learned my body knew how to surface. I didn't know yet that floating alone was only half the work.
Oct 9, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
The Last Dance in an Empty House
I thought the hole my daughter made broke something. The truth is more complicated: it revealed what was already broken, what I'd been hiding behind…
Feb 7, 2025 • Alisa Sieber
Don't Leave Me High and Dry
A visceral postpartum autofiction chapter exploring motherhood, trauma, and survival through lived experience, memory, and music.
Jan 6, 2019 • Alisa Sieber
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