Disillusionment

Honor Courage and Commitment

At 18, a $150,000 scholarship felt like destiny. Twenty years later, I understand it was escape. A journal entry, unedited, and the truth it took…

Mar 1 • Alisa Sieber

Time Echoes in a Warehouse

From Swedish House Mafia to Schoenberg, this is about music as memory, presence, and witness in a world that keeps asking us to look away.

Jan 17 • Alisa Sieber

Christmas. A Love Hate Relationship. Part 2.

A decade of holidays spent performing, surviving, and holding it together. Motherhood, marriage, and the quiet unraveling no one saw.

Jan 1 • Alisa Sieber

Christmas. A Love Hate Relationship. Part 1.

A childhood moment shattered Christmas for me. This essay traces innocence lost, generational trauma, and how motherhood forced me to rebuild meaning…

Dec 29, 2025 • Alisa Sieber

The Last Dance in an Empty House

I thought the hole my daughter made broke something. The truth is more complicated: it revealed what was already broken, what I'd been hiding behind…

Feb 7, 2025 • Alisa Sieber

I Did Something Bad

A visceral autofiction prologue about the American Dream, desire, self-betrayal, and the moment before everything finally breaks open.

Aug 5, 2021 • Alisa Sieber

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